Not Destroyed for One Righteous: Me

Feeling as though your family has been destroyed? Like there is no hope and the future looks bleak? I would like to offer you some encouragement and even hope!! 

As I was listening to Genesis 18 a while back the thought came to me: Abraham was bold with Yahweh. He bargained with Yahweh for Sodom and Gomorrah, for Lot's sake. If there are 50 righteous, will you not destroy S&G for those 50? Down to 10. That is boldness, my friends, with Yahweh.

We all know the story of Lot’s wife in Genesis 19, Abraham bargained with Yahweh down to 10 righteous in Sodom and Gomorrah, the towns wouldn’t be destroyed for those 10 righteous. Not even 10 righteous were found so angels went in and escorted Lot and his family out of there. On their way out, Lot’s wife looked back and she turned into a pillar of salt verse 26.  “But Lot’s wife looked back longingly and was turned into a pillar of salt.” 

How did she look back? With longing.
Once you have discovery, life becomes like a roller coaster and we can begin to look back with longing for what we THOUGHT we had before discovery.

Dreams are destroyed. Those dreams aren't wrong and may still come truth, it just might look different than you thought.

Hope is dangling by a thread, tie a knot and hold on. Hope will return 100 fold, life will get better!

Despair sets in, grief takes over and sometimes intrusive thoughts become really hard to control. I have been there.

Constantly having something playing in the background music, podcast, radio drama or an audio book, something to distract me from my thoughts.

Constantly looking to see who is going by, hearts races if someone knocks on the door ... I am here to tell you with hard work comes healing and it is totally worth the hard to heal.

Don’t look back for long lest you become caught in the pain, and anger and bitterness starts to grow.

Grieve the loss of what you thought you had and would have (still possible if your husband is willing to do the work of recovery) but do not set up housekeeping there.
Your life is in front of you. Your family is in front of you. Healing is in front of you. Your new life or renewed marriage is in front of you. Your deeper relationship with Yahweh and Yeshua is in front of you.
Don’t look back. It is old. It is past. Look forward, keeping your eyes on the prize. 

Here are more of my thoughts on this topic that I shared on Instagram.